This could potentially be a long post, so I will attempt to be colorful yet concise in my wording.
Dates with Mr. Interesting
This broad shouldered, strong armed, caramel colored man, with a full beard and dark eyes approached my door, I had those butterflies. I don't get them often. This whole journey, he has been kind and respectful. I feel like when he looks at me, he starts from deep within me. Anyways, I'm getting ahead of myself.
I was swaggalicious that night. You know, how I do. I picked out my outfit and heels, my hair and face were fly. I even stopped by Sephora to pick up a sample my favorite scent (Alien by Thierry Mugler). I was feeling good and confident. So, like the gentleman he is- he picked me up and we were off. I have previously spoke with him that we should do something active. We agreed upon going to a pottery studio to paint something. We had a great time. He sat across from me and painted a vase and I choose a bowl. Interestingly, he actually finished on time. He had painted his vase with the Japanese characters for passion, and added a symbolic scenic landscape. It was lovely. I on the other hand, took so long to paint, I had to slap paint on my bowl at the last minute because they were closing. We chatted and learned more about each other. The next stop was dinner back in my neighborhood. Again, the talking and sharing was fluid and candid. At one point, I believe I said- "it feels like I've know you forever." He often says we are "kindred spirits". I can dig that.
As the night came to a close, we did share a beautiful intimate moment sharing poetry and a sweet embrace. He left as respectfully as he came.
I think by this point, we had many more philosophical, relational and spiritual conversations that I was pretty darn hooked intellectually. It just happens to be a bonus that his kindness and physical attributes also continue to inspire me. It's weird to write this out- because I feel like I'm in high school with a crush. Is it a crush, if he likes you back? It had been a week exactly from when we had met- and he said we was going to visit me at work (where we met initially). He showed up with the same buddy and we had a great time chatting and throwing back a drink. I needed this because I had a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day! (I mean- I cried at work due to my sugar being so low because I didn't have enough time to eat dinner between 1st job and 2ed). So, to have this handsome gentleman caller come and visit me, sit next to me and put his arm around me- whew- I just melted like butter on a biscuit. It was a short visit but worth the wait!
By this point bigger questions were being asked that had complicated answers. For some reason, we had clicked and doors were opening that neither of us expected. This is still surreal- even while writing this. At times I'm even so scared that I want to run away. I think the concept of someone actually getting to know me and stay around even after the facts- blows my mind. And he's stuck around! He hasn't run away from some of the not so cute facts about my life. Sunday morning, he showed up again at my door. This time I just gave him the biggest hug I could imagine. I didn't even know how to communicate my likeness for him. After the hug, I grabbed my coat and walked into the blustery sunny morn, arm and arm with this new gentleman. We walked to the local coffee shop and went another layer deeper. It was beautiful. Finally, a guy who could communicate wants, desires, fears and conflicts- while at the same time listening and respecting mine. I know, single ladies, this is a rare find. My intention is to continue to explore more parts of him, and try to let some of my walls down. It's hard- at times I want to keep an arms distance from him. And other times, my arms are so tired of being up I just want to relax and be at peace with someone showing my healthy affection. During that coffee date, i felt so present with him that I could feel that peace and joy.
Well, that was the most serious post I've had in a while. Who knows where this will go? All I can say now is that I'm excited and I'll take it one day at a time. I'd like to take a risk and jump off the deep end. You can send positive thoughts, prayers or wisdom my way at any time. I've never done this before- you know, be vulnerable like this. I'm happy to share my experience with this online community. Keep in mind-your are only getting a sliver of the real guy.