tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-77943101834247000332023-06-20T08:53:11.624-04:00Flying Around Townwhere an urban bird chirps on her flight, fancies and follies of dating.urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-82301925230080537692013-03-14T23:41:00.001-04:002013-03-14T23:41:47.635-04:00Are you ready? Spoiler Alert: this blog is about to turn into something else for the current season.<br />
Perhaps- we'll call it.....urbanbird's-trial-at-a-monogamous-relationship-for-realskies-this-time.serious.<br />
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What I would really like to do is put the truth out there in black and white. Well, that's my problem actually. I have an error in my thinking pattern that often bleeds out the grey and leaven me with two drastic sides of the situation. I'm coming to the conclusion, especially in this relationship with Mr. Interesting, that there's a whole lot of grey out there and that is OK! (whodathunk) Bare with me as I struggle to change my bi-polar thinking in terms of this funny little thing called love.<br />
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So, things have progressed with Mr. Interesting. We have seen each other about twice a week for the past two months. I have introduced him to two groups of my close friends, he visits me at work, takes me out and spoils me, he's brought me medicine when I was sick, held me when I wanted to walk away, kissed my tears of pure fear and introduced me to the mother of his children.<br />
I mean, it's kinda ridiculous!!<br />
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I have felt more feelings in the past two months than I have in the past ten years. I have felt new and awkward feelings that I still don't know how to describe. I have never been in love before- and I can't help to ascribe these new feelings to that category. Am I in love?- I ask myself.<br />
I know that I want to only see him.<br />
I know that I care about him deeply.<br />
I know that he makes me feel like no man has ever treated me.<br />
I know that all I want to do is return with affection.<br />
I know that he makes me smile.<br />
I know that I want to be in his kids' lives.<br />
I know that if I never saw him again- I know deep down- he has been honest, genuine, patient, real and has shown me love.<br />
So, if that's all true- then call me a girl in love.<br />
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It hasn't been easy. I've pulled away. I've not trusted. I've hesitated. I am still scared. I feel silly at times. I do not feel rushed- but I fear the thoughts of other. To be honest- I struggle with that a lot. The opinion of others. I fear that they will judge me. I am afraid they will disagree with my decisions and tell me I'm wrong for following my heart.<br />
When I start thinking like that, I have to stop...put my blinders on and keep focused on the truth that encircles the relationship I have with Mr. Interesting and I. When I look into his eyes- I am centered and grounded and solid in his love for me. I am unwavering when he holds me him his arms.<br />
I've never done this before. Sure, I've been in relationships in the past. But this- this one is different! I LIKE HIM! The others- I was with for immature/naive/selfish reasons...for attention. And I never actually liked or loved them honestly. With Mr.Interesting it's the complete opposite. I LIKE HIM. I'm fond of him. I'm challenged by him. I'm captivated by him. I'm intrigued and obviously interested.<br />
I say all of this, because with these new feelings comes the scary feelings of letting someone have my heart. Being vulnerable. Letting go of control. Taking a risk. So, when I'm not with him, when I'm not holding his hand- the feeling of abandonment creeps in when I get lonely.<br />
I guess I've been lonely for so long- it's easy/comfortable to isolate and escape when things get uncomfortable or difficult. It's an odd place to be- not wanting to be alone and yet wanting to run away and hide.<br />
Tricky- these feelings. My heart wants to be loved and I have recently decided that I need to face my fears and take a risk at this love thing.<br />
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It would be my honor if you would join me on this journey- as I process my feelings in this new adventure. What do you get out of it? Well, being a voyeur into the life of a girl who's falling in love for the first time- and you get a front row seat.<br />
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urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-18746718642965125642013-01-21T20:56:00.000-05:002013-01-21T20:56:15.027-05:00Dating Mr. Interesting; Part 1,2 & 3This could potentially be a long post, so I will attempt to be colorful yet concise in my wording.<br />
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Dates with Mr. Interesting<br />
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Part 1-<br />
This broad shouldered, strong armed, caramel colored man, with a full beard and dark eyes approached my door, I had those butterflies. I don't get them often. This whole journey, he has been kind and respectful. I feel like when he looks at me, he starts from deep within me. Anyways, I'm getting ahead of myself.<br />
I was swaggalicious that night. You know, how I do. I picked out my outfit and heels, my hair and face were fly. I even stopped by Sephora to pick up a sample my favorite scent (Alien by Thierry Mugler). I was feeling good and confident. So, like the gentleman he is- he picked me up and we were off. I have previously spoke with him that we should do something active. We agreed upon going to a pottery studio to paint something. We had a great time. He sat across from me and painted a vase and I choose a bowl. Interestingly, he actually finished on time. He had painted his vase with the Japanese characters for passion, and added a symbolic scenic landscape. It was lovely. I on the other hand, took so long to paint, I had to slap paint on my bowl at the last minute because they were closing. We chatted and learned more about each other. The next stop was dinner back in my neighborhood. Again, the talking and sharing was fluid and candid. At one point, I believe I said- "it feels like I've know you forever." He often says we are "kindred spirits". I can dig that.<br />
As the night came to a close, we did share a beautiful intimate moment sharing poetry and a sweet embrace. He left as respectfully as he came.<br />
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Part 2-<br />
I think by this point, we had many more philosophical, relational and spiritual conversations that I was pretty darn hooked intellectually. It just happens to be a bonus that his kindness and physical attributes also continue to inspire me. It's weird to write this out- because I feel like I'm in high school with a crush. Is it a crush, if he likes you back? It had been a week exactly from when we had met- and he said we was going to visit me at work (where we met initially). He showed up with the same buddy and we had a great time chatting and throwing back a drink. I needed this because I had a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day! (I mean- I cried at work due to my sugar being so low because I didn't have enough time to eat dinner between 1st job and 2ed). So, to have this handsome gentleman caller come and visit me, sit next to me and put his arm around me- whew- I just melted like butter on a biscuit. It was a short visit but worth the wait!<br />
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Part 3-<br />
By this point bigger questions were being asked that had complicated answers. For some reason, we had clicked and doors were opening that neither of us expected. This is still surreal- even while writing this. At times I'm even so scared that I want to run away. I think the concept of someone actually getting to know me and stay around even after the facts- blows my mind. And he's stuck around! He hasn't run away from some of the not so cute facts about my life. Sunday morning, he showed up again at my door. This time I just gave him the biggest hug I could imagine. I didn't even know how to communicate my likeness for him. After the hug, I grabbed my coat and walked into the blustery sunny morn, arm and arm with this new gentleman. We walked to the local coffee shop and went another layer deeper. It was beautiful. Finally, a guy who could communicate wants, desires, fears and conflicts- while at the same time listening and respecting mine. I know, single ladies, this is a rare find. My intention is to continue to explore more parts of him, and try to let some of my walls down. It's hard- at times I want to keep an arms distance from him. And other times, my arms are so tired of being up I just want to relax and be at peace with someone showing my healthy affection. During that coffee date, i felt so present with him that I could feel that peace and joy.<br />
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Well, that was the most serious post I've had in a while. Who knows where this will go? All I can say now is that I'm excited and I'll take it one day at a time. I'd like to take a risk and jump off the deep end. You can send positive thoughts, prayers or wisdom my way at any time. I've never done this before- you know, be vulnerable like this. I'm happy to share my experience with this online community. Keep in mind-your are only getting a sliver of the real guy.urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-45016816288243976242013-01-12T15:26:00.001-05:002013-01-12T15:26:14.171-05:00Just a GlanceAlright, alright....so, it's true. I have neglected this blog for a while. I wish I could say it was due to the uncontrollable increase of prospective daters. But. Sigh. It is not.<br />
I was recollecting, re-calibrating and re-centering myself. I have been in a period of self love. I needed to figure out what I was doing and why. Once I started this journey, I realized that it will never end. I'm excited to make better choices, that also include my dating pool.<br />
The last few months- I entertained the company of a few guys but it turned out there were not up to snuff (to even write about).<br />
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Which leads me to last night.<br />
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All it took was a glance.<br />
I recently started working at a new dining establishment in my neighborhood and around about hungry time I took a break to order a salad from the line. As I was sitting at the bar to enjoy my yum-tastic salad. Two gents arrived at the door- one who was my particular flavor and one not so much.<br />
At that was the glance. He saw me and I saw him.<br />
I noticed there wasn't many seats available so I scooted one stool down so that they may sit together. My savvy plan failed, because someone closer to the door scooted before they saw the open seats next to me. Oh well, I thought. I only have 10 min to eat this anyways. I finished and went back to my station. <br />
This was later in my shift, and for the next hour....I swear he keep looking at me. At first, I wasn't sure and thought I was imaging things. Later, I was kinda excited that a guy that I was interested in was interested in me. But I was working! Being professional is important to me, so I sort of gave up the idea that we would ever actually talked. I figured him and his friend would leave after and hour and that would be it.<br />
Well, towards the end of my shift...he was still there. A friend of my casually showed up to meet me after work, so I purposefully posted her at the bar next to the men folk.<br />
After I clocked out, I sat at the bar and chatted with my friend about boys and how silly they were. At the same time, I was eavesdropping (I know, it's bad). But when the guy you are attracted to is a loud talker, and two seats away- it's kinda hard not to shut off the ears. Oddly enough, he took was taking about the relationships of men and women, too! As my girlfriend was questioning all the men in the world- I casually turned to Mr. Interesting and said, "He's a man, you should just ask him."<br />
Bingo-Bango. Then the interaction began.<br />
He came over, gave some good advice and we hit it off. He kinda ignored his friend and I kinda ignored my friend We talked til closing, and we went deep. Philosophy, God, Religion, relationships, - you know, all the things you shouldn't really talk about the first time you meet someone. We did! It wasn't bad. We agreed a lot, and we disagreed on some things. Longer story shorter- he asked if we could continue to the conversation another time. I said yes. He asked for number, and I gave.<br />
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Half an hour later- we texted each other til 4am.(Which I might add-I confirmed and he admitted he noticed me the moment he walked in and was keeping an eye on me while I was working. I found out- that he actually wanted to buy me a drink when I was on break- but once he noticed I was working he couldn't.) I went to sleep. Woke up, and he continued to text me and set up a date.<br />
I'm intrigued by this guy who I'm attracted to physically and attracted to intellectually.<br />
First guy to challenge me in a while. I"m excited.<br />
I'll keep posted about the next engagement.<br />
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Let me just say how exhausted am I at some of my “guy
friends”. This specifically goes out to those guys friends who would never say
we dated, but somehow wind up with some kind of chemistry by the end of the
night. Yah, YOU! I hope you do read my silly little blog, because it’s your
turn to be brought up. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I’m tired of these types of guys friends because in
actuality they are not good friends at all. They, at times of their need and
want, present a false intimacy. I foolishly take it hook, line and sinker
because I am truly looking for intimacy (even in an honest friendship). I end
up getting fooled because a person of the male persuasion cultivates a serious
of exchanges with me whereupon I feel they have gained trust. That
trust is often gained by seeing each other in a multitude of platonic and or group
casual settings. Then magically, there is this unspoken agreement that we
should be in closer proximity, flirt more and have notions with each other
under no what-so-ever verbal agreement of anything more than friends. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Is my little heart so fragile, ignorant or naïve? Why do I
keep collecting these types of guy friends who really end up manipulating me
for some kind of physical affection? Yuck. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I know, I know- I’m working on my backbone for all you
prudent, black and white, strong-willed ladies. It takes time to see the light
and come out these types of relationships. My new goal is to stop them before
it starts. Honestly, these guy friends aren’t worth my time, especially if they
are not truly interested in my betterment. My plan is to set new boundaries and
if these so called friends are truly my friends then they will be respected and
we can commence with a positive and healthy friendship. <o:p></o:p></div>
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So, for YOU listening (reading rather)- if you just want a
hug or a kiss or a cuddle at the end of the night- DUECES. That is not why I’m your friend and you have
your motives all wrong. If you want a girlfriend who can provide the previous
things then go find one- it’s not me! I will take on my own responsibility and
do my best to provide you with more “No’s” and “What the hell are you doing?”-
if that will help you more. Stop using women to get your silly needs met over their
personhood. We are not toys, we are humans with feelings too. If this does
bring about a light bulb over your head- and somehow you have been brought to
repentance- maybe you should reconsider your definition of a friend. In the
case you plan to be my friend, sans the cuddle-bits, you might want to apologize
for your douchebaggery, grow up and make appropriate boundaries. This is my
last warning or you will be permanently cut out. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Thanks, love you like a friend, a real friend who tells the
truth. <o:p></o:p></div>
urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-71678712290524608332012-07-12T20:16:00.001-04:002012-07-12T20:16:32.694-04:00A Little Update or "The Encounters"<br />
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Alright, so I havn’t been on any actual dates in a while-
but I have had some encounters. I choose to put them all together b/c they are
kinda short and sweet (or sour rather).<o:p></o:p></div>
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Encounter #1-I went to Reggae night and was early.While I waited the bartender hooked up a laptop and tuned into an important
basketball game. The music wasn’t fully pumping and there was only
like 6 guys at the bar and me. So, I watched the game silently to myself while
sitting in the middle of the bar, drinking my little drink. Wouldn’t you know-
I sat there and watched the whole game! As did the other 6 guys. No one said a word to me, they were so enthralled with the game. Even the guy sitting 2 inches next to me- not a
peep. Two minutes after the game, I had finished my drink and was sipping on
water- when all of the sudden- another drink popped up. Wait. I didn’t order
another drink. I looked to my left, and looked to my right to see who bought me
a drink. Come to find out – it was the guy sitting next to me for the past 2
hours! After talking, come to find out- he’s in his 30’s, works as a waiter and
still lives with his mom. NEXT.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Encounter #2- Online guy. Yah I know, I said I was done- but
I lied- I was bored and went back on. He initiated the conversation and I stuck
it out. He seemed sweet and wanted to be a comedian. After talking, come to
find out- he’s in his 20’s, does not work, can’t drive and lives with his mom.
NEXT. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Encounter #3- Chilling at my friends bar, this particular
night- I lad lost my voice from work, so I carried around a pen and legal pad
the whole night. Yes, it looked ridiculous. Dude approaches me, and I scribble
down why I can’t talk. We write/chat for a minute. After talking, come to find
out- he’s in his late 30’s, lives with his cousin, and just got released from a 19 year long stint in prison this past spring. NEXT. <o:p></o:p></div>
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NEXT. ….. NEXT……NEXT…….still waiting. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<o:p>Is it so hard to ask for a guy who has a job, has his own place, perhaps has a car, and does not have a criminal record? </o:p></div>
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<o:p>I just want some substance. </o:p></div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-39870922647589417102012-06-20T01:18:00.003-04:002012-06-20T01:18:38.884-04:00Coach<br />
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Alright, so I was invited to check out a basketball game ( I
think Oklahoma vs. Miami), at a local bar, with some friends of mine. I wasn’t
really going for the game- I just wanted to get out of the house. The three of
us arrived; me, a girl friend and a guy friend (who has a girlfriend). We sat
at the bar- along with the 5 other people. We talked, watched the game, and had
a drink. Then I decided to take a break to enjoy my favorite concoction of
cloves outside. I imbibed and across the street I notice this seasoned
gentleman walking toward me and says, “Excuse me.” <o:p></o:p></div>
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Somewhere inside- I’m sure I had a moment that said<i>, uh-oh..run away. This is not good</i>.<o:p></o:p></div>
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My action step was that I should ignore him. <o:p></o:p></div>
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He soon got closer, “Excuse me, can I just say one thing?” <o:p></o:p></div>
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“Sure,” I reply. <o:p></o:p></div>
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“You are just gorgeous!”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“Um, thanks.” <o:p></o:p></div>
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“Can I just say one, thing?” <o:p></o:p></div>
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“Ok.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“You see I used to coach for Nebraska, but now I coach for Pitt.” <o:p></o:p></div>
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Then, he went off for like 10 minutes repeating the same
football story from 20 years ago, in Nebraska! 20 years ago! And the team didn’t
even win. It went something like, “And he dove, the mother-fer, excuse my
language, was down at the line and just dove. But we lost the game. You see,
those kids from Nebraska- they just go for it.” <o:p></o:p></div>
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With several variations, even cornering another couple
walking by, he repeated his nostalgic tale from way back before anyone
listening was born. He continued to fluff his feathers, and show off his shorts
– (which were Pitt sports gear). He made certain that I knew he was a coach at
Pitt, and that we should get dinner sometime. Also, that the bar down the street
gives free drinks to people who work for Pitt. He was clearly intoxicated, but
I (silly me) continued the conversation. Throughout, and basically every five
minutes, it was interrupted by one of these lines. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">“Can I just tell you one thing?”</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">“Oh, Nebraska! You should have seen that dive.”</span></div>
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“Can I just talk to you for a few minutes?”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“Can I just tell you one thing?”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“I havn’t told anyone this.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“Those cornhuskers…”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“Can I talk to you for like two hours?”<o:p></o:p></div>
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“Can I just tell you one thing?”<o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">Intermittently</span> throughout these questions, the repetitious
homage of the past consisted of football, football, football, 1982, Tommy
Dorsey, football, football, 1983, another important figure, football.<o:p></o:p></div>
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“I think you are just gorgeous,” never stopped, as well.
During these rants he continued to touch my forearm, grab my hand and kiss it while
making his ever-so important points. I thought it was hilarious. All this was
outside. The salt and pepper haired seasoned “gentleman” seemed to be fond of
me, and wouldn’t let me go back inside. So, what did he do? He invited himself
inside and sat down with me and my friends. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The same stories were told. He showcased his shorts again,
to my friends. He continued to talk about football, until the topic of the
Beetles arrived. The he proceeded to serenade for the next 15 minutes. But
despite his intoxication, he couldn’t remember the lyrics to any of the songs,
or the names of the songs. Luckily, my good friends said they had to go home
and they were my ride. So, I patted his back and walked out the door. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Miami won, by the way. <o:p></o:p></div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-78384363181030257332012-06-15T17:00:00.000-04:002012-06-15T17:00:06.489-04:00London Calling<br />
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The following story is from when I traveled abroad to
London, England. <o:p></o:p></div>
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My friends and I decided to go to a club and get our energy out. It was fun, we had a great time. Although, I did notice that men in Europe
are much more aggressive than in the US. For some reason, I felt like if I
danced with someone- then there was this unspoken rule that I owed them something
in return. If ya know what I mean? <o:p></o:p></div>
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So there I was shaking my thang, ant this African dude came
up to me and started dancing. But very close, and a little too close for
comfort actually. I found a friend and moved to the other side of the dance
floor. About an hour later, African dude found me again! I looked across the
floor searching for my friends- I couldn't find anyone. I did though make good
eye contact with this one fellow. I ended up shrugging off the African dude and went to
another part of the club. Then it was almost closing time, and I was afraid
African dude was going to find me and corner me or worse follow me home. My friends
were in the crowd somewhere- but I had no safety net. To my right I saw African
dude about 30 feet away headed in my direction. To my left about 5 feet away
was the guy I had eye contact with earlier. I grabbed his wrist walked towards
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I said, “HI- sorry to bother you but I just
need to borrow you for a moment.” I took a breath and continued, “there is a guy following me and I just want him to think I am with someone.” African dude passed
by and didn’t stop. Whew! I was in the clear. And now I had this cute guy
standing next to me. I finished with, “I’d love to thank you by buying you a pint at the pub.”
He said yes with no hesitation. Later that week, we met and I bought him his pint. We hit it off right after that. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Even years and miles apart, I still chat with him to this
day. Thank buddy. <o:p></o:p></div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-5930230499350026322012-06-13T17:00:00.000-04:002012-06-13T17:00:05.343-04:00Confidently Cocky<br />
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My coworker and I hit up the local bar and grill near the
off ramp to have a quick social hour after a ridiculous night at work. Mostly we discuss out idiot coworkers, annoying clients and
how administration is oblivious to it all. This particular evening became slightly more interesting. </div>
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In walk three twenty something’s. Now at this point coworker
and I were <u><i>the only</i></u> ones in the restaurant before they walked in. They walked right in and sat
right next to us and actually greeted us with an odd confidence. Coworker and I sort of
eavesdropped on their conversation. I am a regular there and know the
bartender fairly well. I noticed cocky guy #1 was trying to hit on
bartender lady. With a ridiculous compliment, might I add (one- I would never fall for.)
Bartender lady was polite and shrugged it off. I on the other hand guffawed really loud. He
caught me! I gave him a bit of a discussed look back, when I noticed him noticing
me. He interjected, “ It wasn’t that funny.”</div>
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Now, I’m not quick on my wit. So I just
gave him an awkward look like - how do you know I was laughing at you?<o:p></o:p></div>
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What I really wanted to say was, “I wasn’t laughing at
your joke. Trust me- I was laughing at your false projection of confidence that
clearly failed.” </div>
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I would pay money to repeat that moment over and see his
reaction to that line. Oh well. <o:p></o:p></div>
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So we left. <o:p></o:p></div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-6288000646323196142012-06-11T17:00:00.000-04:002012-06-12T23:14:53.302-04:00Mr. Tall, Dark and….(a story from back in the day)<br />
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So, I have this thing with bouncers, doormen- you know the
bulky confident type who can kick your ass if you look at them wrong. Yup.
That’s my cup of tea. And I’m not quite sure if I am attracted them or they are
attracted to me- but either way I find them and they find me. <o:p></o:p></div>
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This particular one is from a while ago. A few of my
friends wanted to go out, and I got to choose the place. It was this cute
little lounge where they served my favorite drink- Stockholm Royale. My lame friends didn’t
want to pay for the fancy martini- so they went to the liquor store while I
went inside. I strolled up to the bar and sat comfortably at the corner seat. Then
suddenly, Mr. Tall, Dark walks up to me and sits down. Now at first I just
thought he was a friendly patron of the bar. Then he proceeded to ask me if I frequented the bar. I had, and then he asked me if I tried the food. I hadn’t. He
handed me a menu and I perused the options. I wasn’t really hungry for food...<o:p></o:p></div>
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Then he stood up, and told me he was on the clock and that he’d
be right back because he had to do a check. Oh! He was a bouncer. I’m game, I
know this drill. He came back, and we chatted more. Simple get to know you convo.
He was charming, not rude. He was a man, not a boy. <o:p></o:p></div>
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My friends came and left, and I was still captivated by this
man who was spending time doting over me. Then it was last call. Then it was 2
o’clock. Then it was 3 o’clock and I was standing outside his SUV. He was
looking fine as all get-out and then I noticed he had a Joni Mitchell cd in the truck. Now,
I’m not hating- but I sure don’t know many large black men to be a fan of the
songstress. But I shrugged it off. Asked some more questions, gave a
scrumptious hug and went on my giddy way.</div>
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We saw each other a few times throughout the next weeks.</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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Second part of the story- my local radio show had a quiz
going on. I called it, answered the question right, and won the prize. It was
to see a performance- that I was mildly excited to see. I also received a meet
and greet with the cast. I gathered my best gay and went to the meet and
greet. Guess what? It was the same bar Mr. Tall, Dark worked at. I was excited
to run into him again. <o:p></o:p></div>
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While I was there, I met the radio show host. She was
stunningly beautiful. She even said I was beautiful. Those things make me blush
honestly. We all sat down and had h'orderves and drinks. I then noticed- Mr. Tall, Dark was at the event. Then I saw that he proceeded to sit at the same table as the radio
show host. Then, I realized that there were small mixed children at the same table. And then, I made the connection Mr. Tall, Dark was married to Ms. Radio Show Host. </div>
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And that is how he became Mr. Tall, Dark and Married. <o:p></o:p></div>
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UGHH. Why? Do I have “the other woman” tattooed on my forehead?
He lied to me the entire time. </div>
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AND THEN- he had the audacity to still want to be
friends- after he clearly saw me that night!<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-12576128311939303702012-06-09T19:49:00.002-04:002012-06-09T19:49:50.440-04:00Shortest Date Ever*Sorry I had a month of not writing- was moving jobs and home. ie. a bit busy.<br />
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I did have a recent experience that I must translate.<br />
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This particular gentleman was from one of those online
dating sites- I had mentioned previously. After over 24 hours of agonizingly
deciding where to meet/eat/date, we had finally decided. </div>
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We choose a lovely
local but fine dining establishment in the cultural district. He had made
reservations (which I thought was classy) and when I showed up he was waiting. It was fairly awkward for the
first 15 minutes, as I had to drag out conversation with him. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Another irritation was his appearance. Now, I’m not that shallow to judge a date from his appearance but a whole lot of
information presents itself upon first observation. This gentleman was wearing
sneakers. Sneakers! Alright, I realize he was coming straight from work but I
didn’t know he was wearing sneakers at work. I was wearing 5 inch heels! Basically, that earned negative points.<o:p></o:p></div>
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The food was great, expensive but great. While in the middle
of dinner he was texting. Which I thought was a little rude but he qualified it
as important. I shrugged it off. His face got distressed and I told him he
should turn off his phone. He replied it was in
his contract for work that he had to keep it on. Whatever. Five minutes later,
he told me that he had to cut the date short because he was required to attend
a conference call in less than an hour. Grumble. Ok. Luckily, I wasn’t too
disappointed. I at least had one mojito. He did get more friendly and opened up as we wrapped up the evening,
but it wasn’t enough to grab my attention. He drove me home and that
was it. Perhaps it was an excuse to ditch me, perhaps it was the truth. I’ll
never know. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Date ended in less 90 minutes. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Oh, and the by the way three days later- he texted me that he felt no chemistry. At least the food was good. </div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-9381282791658229302012-05-01T17:00:00.000-04:002012-05-01T17:00:02.629-04:00Ins and Outs of LoveAs I have been pondering about my love life, relationships and love- I have come to some conclusions. My conclusions have been edited, honed, and chiseled by my experiences, research and wise elders.<br />
Love is....<br />
Love is....<br />
Love is not what society frames it as. Love is not lust or sex or infatuation. Love is not what you think it is.<br />
Love is challenging, hard work and about trust.<br />
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I've never been in love.<br />
I'm stubborn, afraid and lazy.<br />
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For a long time, I've always been curious about love. I knew it was unfamiliar, so I gathered up as much information I could read. I asked questions like, how will I know? What if I was in love and didn't know it before? Maybe I ran away from love because it was so hard? Did I end relationships because I was just unhappy or did I truly not love them? Was I waiting for that twitterpated feeling?<br />
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Feeling. Let's stop there. Is love more than a feeling? Yes, I believe. One can be, in love. But love is also a commitment, sacrifice, compromise. Love gets its hands dirty and isn't afraid of a messy problem.urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-33718694872421368392012-04-29T16:21:00.001-04:002012-04-29T16:21:08.668-04:00Cyber ClickingHave you ever joined one of those dating websites? Did you find anyone? Was it really worth your time?<br />
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Well- I've done it all. This site, that site, the other site. Bla bla bla. </div>
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I didn't find anyone, hence the still single thing. And it was basically a waste of my time. </div>
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This is what happened. </div>
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Check it-<br />
First site- you know the one with the so called million compatibility functions. Well, they asked me to put in my preferences. I did and initially I was a little excited about the matches. Once I was done, a whole line up of gents popped up. Apparently when I put in my preferences- I like to be physically active and education is important, I got a line up of meat heads and geeks. Um....not exactly what I was looking for. I really meant- I am looking for someone who values those same characteristics. I really don't want to date a lazy person. I prefer someone who is headed in a healthy direction. As for education, I have a master's degree. So, I need someone to keep up. You know-challenge me, mentally. Also, I like my gents with flavor. This particular site didn't offer anyone with flavor with the characteristically that I value. What? Really? No one with flavor and education applies for these sites. Exactly! NEXT. </div>
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Next site- lets try one with more flavor. Um....right. Now this one has no compatibility functions. All I had to do was create a profile. Then creepy dudes bugged the heck out of me. I would not even call these guys gents. Most of them were looking for "something-something". You know what I mean? wink wink. Not interested. Or they were creepy old guys (again!...I know). There were no men of substance. NEXT.</div>
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Next site- lets go opposite. Let's try some religious oriented site. Boring! No flavor here either. A little bit more compatibility than the last- but still nothing. Lame. Vanilla on top of vanilla. The only funny thing was seeing the same people on the same sites. Hilarious. I'm done. </div>
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So, that's my story of the cyber dating. I'm leaving this fake-profile-online-meeting-shindig. </div>
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I want to talk and flirt with a real person. I don't want to cyber "wink" you or poke you or sign up for a membership only to email you two sentences. I don't need to know your whole life from reading it on one web page. I would like to feel vibes and watch body language. The words on your profile don't show me who you really are. I want to hear inflections and tone and attitude. I don't care about your posed photos and what I should be attracted to. I don't want to meet you in person after I know everything about you online. </div>
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I want to stumble upon someone while my daily walk, or flight rather. </div>
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I was planning of writing this blog while snacking, but then realized I couldn't really type with cheesy buttery fingers.<br />
Now that I'm done, we can commence about: The Husband.<br />
The husband is a guy I will in future posts reference as "the husband."<br />
His version of the story is much better, we usually argue about who is going to tell the story when we introduce each other. You'll have to do with my version.<br />
A couple of years ago, I was asked to help a wedding tutorial for school. I called some friends for help as actors and crew to film this experience. In walked my guy friend and he was immediately assigned to portray the groom- and guess who was bride? Me!<br />
So, we got married. It's filmed. The professor led the "ceremony." Ever since then, the whole group of us joke that is was secretly ligetimate because we said all the words that would be in an actual wedding.<br />
Depending on his mood, the husband says, "But I really crossed my fingers."<br />
But that's how he became the husband.<br />
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Now, throughout the past years- our relationship was an open one. lol. We would hang out and discuss who he was dating and who I was dating. I've always loved processing relationships with the husband. He's a good guy, but sometimes melodramatic. I'm sure he might actually say the same thing about me, or maybe just dramatic. <br />
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Here's a story about one night when I went out with the husband.<br />
We arranged a date to celebrate a big meeting he had. I happen to be in the city and wanted to show him a particular swanky bar.<br />
I remember specifically hating the outfit I was wearing. Not that I needed to impress him, it was the husband, after all. But I didn't particularly feel confident enough to go this bar I wanted to take him to. I even went to a store to see if I could find something just right. No luck. I ended up just changing the venue to a more casual place. Mind you- he showed up in a suit (from his meeting). I figured he wouldn't feel as uncomfortable, if we just went to a local pub.<br />
We started at one place, were he actually was very vulnerable. It was a new place in our friendship. Then we moved to another venue- one I felt fairly comfortable in. Although, at this particular time the bar was kinda busy- and there wasn't much space.<br />
I scoped out the seats at the bar, and noticed two seats between an older black male and the wall. (which ironically this is another story that could have been in a previous post). The husband knows what kind of flavor I prefer, so he suggested I sit next to the stranger and he take the other seat. I obliged.<br />
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Back to relationship conversation. "What do you want that you're not getting?" I pronounce in his direction. He paused. I continued, "I mean you don't want a stupid broad, right?" The man next to me, smiled and laughed so that we could hear us. We asked for advice. Which was pretty awesome. George was his name. He told us that we should get all the action while we could get it, because when you get older beauty and organs don't cut it as much. After the more suggestive conversation ended, George gave some serious advice about finding someone to make you happy. It was nice, and he continued to share about his life. I remember he liked saxophone jazz artists. The husband has a great art for conversation.<br />
Somehow, we both fell in love with George and pushed him with questions regarding right from wrong, good from evil, truth from lies. The husband eloquently and respectfully debated back. I was in the middle enjoying it thoroughly. We learned that George had lost his faith along the way. From my perspective, we ended the conversation with hope, kindness and love.<br />
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As we walked out, the husband was a little worried about his apologetics, but I assured him he was fine. I was proud of him. I encouraged him that this kind of conversation was a gift and that he should continue in it. I, on the other hand, process things slower, and debate is not a tool I have handy. I told him all I could do is encourage and pray. I did. I love the husband.<br />
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George had mentioned he went to this pub every week for happy hour, and especially when a particular bartender worked. I went back a week later, to have a follow up conversation. He wasn't there. Hopefully, I'll run into George again one day.urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-60362794039097466552012-04-27T17:00:00.000-04:002012-04-27T21:39:29.195-04:00Sheep in Wolf's Clothing<div>The following is partial letter and partial processing.<br />
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I ran into a wolf the other day.<br />
Yah, I'm pretty sure he was functioning as a wolf at that time.<br />
It was the charm, charisma and eye contact. I offered my number first, (all textbook).<br />
Come to find out, through his own insights, this wolf is changing his skin. Now, I can't really tell if there's always been a sheep underneath that thick black fur or this is a complete transformation.<br />
I'm still trying to figure this one out.<br />
Literally in black and white, he spells it out to me. All the secrets of being a wolf. But are they secrets now? And do the secrets count if they don't mean anything now?<br />
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<i>Mr. Used-to-be-a-wolf:</i><br />
<i>If you no longer want to be a wolf, then what good is it that I know wolf secrets?</i><br />
<i>If you are leaving the city and turning in your wolf mask, claws and fur, what's underneath?</i><br />
<i>I want to know those secrets. I'm curious if you are really ready to leave.</i><br />
<i>I'm curious what was that pivotal moment where you said- I can't do this wolf thing anymore?</i><br />
<i>If your reading this, Mr. Used-to-be-a-wolf, I'd like to know what you want? </i><br />
<i>What are you looking for?</i><br />
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Sometimes, I think I'm just wasting my time. If the wolf doesn't know what he wants- then maybe I should just move on or put him in the just-a-friend category. That would be easy for me, that would be familiar. What's not familiar is trusting, and being vulnerable. What's hard is letting my guard down and letting him get to know me? I wonder if he actually wants to get to know me.<br />
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<i>What is a man? I've heard you say, "A real man is redundant...He doesn't need descriptions...his actions shout man, they shout truth, they are evident like the sun's light..."</i><br />
<i>What if you take the pursuit out of a man?? What does that leave? Is he still searching for the one? What feeds your soul? </i><br />
<i>I know you're afraid to open up- we all are. Do you ever want to take a risk? Perhaps you're happy with the three and I should just let you be.</i><br />
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Honestly, I'd love to make this into a project. He is worth and deserves more, so I won't.<br />
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<i>I'd like to unwrap you. </i><br />
<i>I'd like to pull you apart, dissect you-</i><i>savouring every bit. </i><br />
<i>I'm so fascinated by your mysteriousness. </i><i>You are so cool, calm and collected. </i><br />
<i>I want to know where you came from, </i><i>who raised you, and what you rebelled against.</i><br />
<i>I know you could flip me, spin circles around and chase me down, b</i><i>ut you choose not to. </i><br />
<i>You say you're shy, I see you in the backseat. </i><br />
<i>You speak about this former wolf, b</i><i>ut really, I'm over that.</i><br />
<i>I want to know the real ins and outs of you, now. </i><br />
<i>What made you change your ways? </i><i>Why go against the system? </i><br />
<i>What crossed your path and told you to go straight? </i><br />
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I have so many questions.<br />
I wish I hadn't read his tell all book. I get confused sometimes.<br />
I wish he could just put down the claws.<br />
Then I would know if he was functioning as a sheep or a wolf.<br />
By the way, he never used to the word, sheep. I did. And in my definition it's not negative or weak.<br />
A sheep is humbled by his Master. A sheep is aware who he belongs too.<br />
Aside from that, men and women were created for each other.<br />
He and She is just complimentary.<br />
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<i>Between ribs you'll find my place,</i><br />
<i><b>Urban Bird</b></i><br />
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<br />urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-23827705859113099172012-04-26T17:00:00.000-04:002012-04-26T17:00:02.238-04:00Oh, That's Your Grandchild?!Does it look like I have the words, "If you're older than 50, please hit on me," written on my forehead?<br />
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I don't understand! Do I exude some kind of pheromone that attracts these old heads? For real, I get that I can be nice- but I'm really not interested. Check it, in one 24 hour period I had two of these encounters.<br />
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Here's how it went.<br />
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Old head #1<br />
Went to a new bar, a little bit more flavor this time. I met a friend who happened to work at this fine establishment. So, I was kinda by myself while my friend was working. I sat sipping on a rum flavored straw to the side, slightly uncomfortable and not in my element. I was looking pretty fly though, if I might say.<br />
After about 20 minutes, a more mature looking guy came up to me and started laying some THICK lines down. I won't go into all the phrases he said, but boy- they were funny.<br />
Let me give you the jist though. He basically told me that all the guys in the bar were fake and that I needed a real man. (What ever that is!) He proceed to say he would like to take me out to dinner, take me to the casino to play and go dancing. Later in the evening his proposal gifts got even more lavish and more extravagant - he offered to pay my bills!<br />
NO JOKE! He wanted to take care of me,"like a good man should" in his words.<br />
Ok- so, as I mentioned previously, I have a hard time saying no. Now, I never said yes, to any of his offers, I just never said no. I wasn't going to say yes either. I was playing nice, and occasionally I would run to my friend working and whisper, "You wouldn't believe what this dude is telling me." We laughed it off, and I went back to playing nice. My phone was my main distraction for most of the night. He had pulled out his, and I noticed a little baby on his phone. I said, "Oh, how cute! Is that your daughter?" His reply: "No, it's my grandchild."<br />
Wait! What? That's your grandchild?! Holy crap. This just went from uncomfortable to now creepy.<br />
How do I get out of this one? I was supposed to hang out with my friend after work. I couldn't really leave. Ur- uh. Whew! Last call. Maybe I'll just excuse myself to the ladies room for a few minutes- and when I return he will be gone.<br />
Heel, toe, Heel, toe. To the restroom I walk away- and roll my eyes knowing he's watching me walk away. Lock myself in, wash hands, reapply lip gloss, check my phone, wait a few seconds- there's a knock at the bathroom door. Really!? Really?!<br />
I come out- Surprise! Guess who's there- trying to feel up on me? Old head! Um- where's my friend, now? I give his a polite hug and he decides to leave. Finally.<br />
I then feel I needed to wash in Listerine, or bathe in bleach or scrub with borax. Shutter.<br />
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Old head #2<br />
In the city, driving in my cute little red sporty car. My windows a rolled down, I'm jammin to some music. A clunker of a truck pulls up to the right of me- and an older gentlemen who did not have all of this teeth- proceeded to cat call at me. I couldn't really ignore it because my windows were down and he noticed me hear him. Yikes. I said, "thanks for the compliment," with a saccharine smile. Then he continued to say something about my man and not telling him and such and such. Apparently, he hadn't seen a "sexy smile" like mine in a long time.<br />
Where do people get these ideas? And these words? And the idea that they can just say these words!?<br />
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Is there any hope? I'm a young urban bird- can't I just date a guy in my same generation. Is that so hard to ask!<br />
Laughing out loud, literally.<br />
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<br />urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-31387186607983682832012-04-25T17:00:00.000-04:002012-04-25T17:00:03.507-04:00Playground<div><p>I went to the playground.<br>
Walked around the jungle gym and he followed me. I walked to the swings, through the grass, over the pavement and in the gravel. These swings were odd and not normal. I swung back and forth because that's all my body could do. It was late and I couldn't really think. He stood by.<br>
Then I walked to the basketball court and I paced. Not just for a minute, but for a while. Back and forth. I closed my eyes and counted the steps to took to cross the width of the court. It was fifteen. I did it blind in the black of the night. I forgot my jacket and I got chilly. I don't want to admit it, but he was nice to offer his. Then I remember how it felt to spin in circles like a little girl and loose myself in the dizzyness. I spun, but I think my head was spinning faster.<br>
He said he finally knew what it felt like. It was a relief to me. I didn't think he would ever understand.<br>
Now, I at least have comradeship. <br>
My body ran out of energy and I sat on the cold pavement. No new words, but acknowledgement.<br>
I gave back the jacket, a hug and prayers were said.<br>
New leaf, new start, new flight.</p>
<p>I've decided I am going to approach this urban bird's flight by soaring to new heights.<br>
I think I will fly above the city, rather than walk among it.<br>
I'm tired of getting gum on my shoes, rained on and getting lost.</p>
</div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-76402505760332369212012-04-24T19:28:00.000-04:002012-04-24T19:28:52.431-04:00Robin's and Rum<div>
This urban bird is not prone to say yes to dates at Red Robin at 5pm.<br />
I conferred with several of my buddies- and I got a 50/50 poll answer on whether to go or not.<br />
I went.<br />
I went with a stipulation- that I had to say no, if I wasn't impressed by Red Robin man.<br />
This is where I divulge a secret ~ It's hard for me to say no. ~<br />
I'm working on it.<br />
Anywho- there I went to Red Robin at 5pm, on a Monday. I showed up wearing a casual but cute outfit. He showed up in sneekers, jeans and a grey t-shirt. Um- not impressed. Awkward hug at the front door. We met separately, which all first dates should be. 45 mins later, we were done with our meal. I was thoroughly bored, but he wanted to continue to date.<br />
Excuse me, but continue the date where? It's 6pm on a Monday? He mentioned something about playing pool. I stuck to my guns and said I wasn't comfortable going far away to a seedy bar to play pool. He was persistent and asked the waitress if she knew a close place. By happenstance there were two chain restaurants that had a pool table near by. I had been to both- so i felt comfortable enough to have a drink and play a game of pool.<br />
I met him at chain restaurant #1.<br />
The table was being used- so we just had a drink and talked. About nothing. Literally about nothing. To this day, I can't remember what we actually talked about for an hourish. Oddly, as boring as it continued to be- he still wanted to play pool. I told him that I hadn't played pool since highschool after prom. Lucky for him, chain restaurant #2 was literally across the street.<br />
I didn't really have much to do, again it was Monday- now 7pm.<br />
I met him at chain restaurant #2.<br />
The table was being used- so we just had a drink and talked. Then I think he felt awkward, and wanted to do something other than sit and drink. They had a little arcade- we we played a deer hunting game. (If anyone reading this knows me- that would be really weird to see- and it was) I kicked his butt- those bucks were mine. Then we played a basketball game. Not to be overtly confident, but my form was way better.<br />
We sat after and proceeded to talk about trains for the next 30 mins. Yes, the train man was back. Oi Vey.<br />
All I was thinking was, how do I get out of this date without being rude? Should I just suck it up or make an excuse to leave? The sun was starting to set, and my attention span was now at it's tension spring.<br />
I sucked it up, gave him a hug good bye and ran out like a mad woman seeking authentic and non boring attention.<br />
For all those who care, I told him- Thanks, but no thanks- to his second offer out.<br />
Shutter. Never again.<br />
I need more flavor in my dates or at least someone who's not socially awkward.</div>urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-21704283854899463082012-04-23T17:28:00.000-04:002012-04-23T17:35:54.535-04:00Serenade and BaseballJust think of baseball, just think of baseball, just think of baseball.<br />
That never works for me. I do have a liking to baseball. It reminds me of spring in San Francisco, with my grandfather. Ah, baseball.<br />
As I am in the local of the Pirates- I figured I could use this to my advantage.<br />
Quick backstory: I have a bank- where at one point all the debit cards were this bright orange and everyone I knew had them. I'm not a follower and like to be distinct, so i decided to get a personalized debit card. Yah, I know fancy pants. I didn't go to any of the big schools out here- so I choose the Pirates as the cover of my debit card.<br />
Back to the current situation. I am sitting at the bar. The Pirates are currently on the tv. I say to the bartender, "So, since I'm paying with my (wink wink) Pirates card and the Pirates are on tv- I think I should get a discount."<br />
Ok- I had to try. I grew up being taught- only stupid people don't ask questions. Worse case senerio- I had to pay what I ordered for.<br />
The bartender replied- "Well, maybe if the Pirates were in the World Series. Go Dodgers!"<br />
I thought my chances were slim now.<br />
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Before paying I decided to step out on to the patio for a breath of not so fresh air. There was a cute gaggle of friends chatting away outside. I eaves-dropped and would frequently smile in their general direction as a pleasant casualty. After a few minutes, most of them went back in with the exception of this one boisterous bloke.<br />
Five minutes prior to standing alone with him, I made a cheapshot at how I thought he was exceptionally drunk. I wasn't quite sure how the secluded time would go.<br />
But there I was standing and talking with him. He asked me where I was from, which I replied California. I mentioned something about the bay area and Berkeley. He mentioned something about he went to Berkeley in Boston. A prestigious school for music. I asked what he studied. He replied vocal.<br />
We got on the topic of favorite music, bands and singers. He wants to be a rock star. But at Berkeley you can't major in rockstarness. He said he was trained as an opera singer.<br />
So, I challenged him- "Sing something."<br />
Not sure if it was the liquor or what but he said- why not!<br />
Then he sang me a few chords of an Italian Opera. Right there! Outside of my little brew pub.<br />
It was fantastic. I've never been serenaded like that. He said he had never done that either.<br />
Always a first.<br />
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I went back in, said good by to train man, good bye to the gaggle, and singed my bill.<br />
Wait!~ Wait a second. I ordered three drinks. But he only charged me for two! What!<br />
A serenade and a free drink because of baseball, heck ya.<br />
Swing batter, swing!<br />
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<br />urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7794310183424700033.post-78911388629131694812012-04-22T21:25:00.000-04:002012-04-23T00:36:38.440-04:00Trains, Planes and more Trains.At my local brew pub, I frequent occasionally- I found myself chatting with an average chap. Normally, I don't flutter about at this particular venue. In fact, it's not even in town. As I sat there, he started up conversation and I indulged for the heck of it. Why not, right? I'm single.<br />
After the pleasantries about jobs and church and such, this particular gent started to talk about trains. He wasn't a regular at this bar. He happen to have been on this side of the neighborhood to watch trains, as he fancy's. At first, I was intrigued because I thought only old men and little boys liked the hobby and love of trains. He was in this early thirties and worked at Home Depot.<br />
"So, do you want to work at Home Depot your whole life or what?" I asked. He did have dreams and goals. So, I kept the conversation going. Even after the awkward silence, the train conversation (might I say quiet one sided) continued. All I really said was, "Wow," "Interesting," and "Humm...I didn't know that".<br />
Somehow, we got on the topic of finding new jobs and I offered him a non-profit website that I visit occasionally. At this point, he had finished his beer around the same time I had finished my second Strongbow. I didn't want to walk out with him. He was vanilla. Bland. Ordinary but socially odd. So, I had a clove and ordered another cider.<br />
He said he had to hit the road as I predicted, and I handed him my business card. I didn't think I was overtly flirty, this was a business contact. He had mentioned grabbing a beer near his place. I shrugged it off- but apparently thirty minutes after I left the bar, he was serious.<br />
Then, he sent me a picture of a train- that same night. Mind you all my reply's to his texts were one word answers. Not only was it a train, but a trash train. Yah, a train that holds trash.<br />
Perhaps, no one told his fellow- sending picture of trash trains to women you're attracted to is not cute. In fact, it's weird and creepy.<br />
I'm ending here. But sadly, this is not the end of train man.urbanbirdhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11832420730803238492noreply@blogger.com0